[swansonk]

Ill make sure to pray for them daily to realize what they had done in the afterlife and be very ashamed and guilty feeling.

May there be great sorrow, weeping and gnashing of teeth. Luke 13:28

"There will be weeping there, and gnashing of teeth, when you see Abraham, Isaac and Jacob and all the prophets in the kingdom of God, but you yourselves thrown out.

Dude, I'll go out on a limb here. You need to seek professional help before it's too late.